I think the worst part is that I keep being given a taste of what that kind of happiness could feel like. Just the smallest taste.
Then it’s taken away.
Over and over.

I’ll never find it.
Not for keeps.

When I think about it, I’d rather just never know.
It’d be so much less painful.

Please, life, just stop. ;_;

I hate a lot of things right now.

Like not being able to get a job, that finding enough money to actually eat is getting harder every day, that I need to move to have any chance of finding a job which means losing my cat Chase who is my everything right now and that I’ve hurt my ankle again.

But what’s torn down the last of my resistance was today.

That the girl I was falling for told me there can’t be anything between us.
And that I didn’t even get to say goodbye to her.

And that my grandfather passed away today.
RIP Grandpa. </3

I can’t do it anymore.
I’m just going to stay in bed and try to forget anything exists tonight.
Please make it all go away.

Here&#8217;s an extremely hungover post-crying selfie. Hot. :/Remind me why I took this again ugh.
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Here’s an extremely hungover post-crying selfie. Hot. :/
Remind me why I took this again ugh.

So. I’ve decided to experiment.

And no, not with my sexuality guys, calm down.
Been there, done that. ;)

Going to try being a brunette.
Temporarily.
(Even though it’s probably going to horribly stain my white blonde hair.)
I have a feeling I’m going to regret this.

Home alone with nothing to do and a pack of hairdye someone stop me already ah.

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Eeeeeeeeeee.

*rolls around with a huge grin on my face*

FOUR MORE YEARS FOR YOU OBAMA COCO!

YOU GO OBAMA COCO!

So wrong but so right.

How’s my week been?

-Lost my job
-Rent increased
-Denied financial assistance
-Jobs I’ve applied for ignore me
-Feel fairly sure my girlfriend is wanting to leave me for my own best friend
-Period
-Got a cold

All at fucking once.
I quit okay? I just fucking quit.

Brought my rainbow back for pride. ;)Zee and I are fucking adorable okay? Okay.
Had the best night ever.
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Brought my rainbow back for pride. ;)
Zee and I are fucking adorable okay? Okay.

Had the best night ever.

What a sexy beast.
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What a sexy beast.

Apparently I earned the best view in the house.
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Apparently I earned the best view in the house.

So I have poka dot bruises on my knee from last night. Confused but I ain&#8217;t even mad, best pride ever. ;D
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So I have poka dot bruises on my knee from last night.
Confused but I ain’t even mad, best pride ever. ;D