Slept in till midday then made coffee and cheesy vegetable toast.
Going to sit on my computer and window shop for things and maybe chill outside because the weather is so nice.
Happy panda. ^-^
My parents got me this while I was away this week.
Even they think I’m going to end up a crazy cat lady.
I’ve had a bad week. A few good spots but overall pretty shit.
I’m finally home and dead set on doing something to kick start me actually having a life again.
Right now however I’m exhausted.
It’s all cold and rainy.
Any big spoons wanna volunteer for snuggles?
Night guys. x
After I’m done crying or being actively upset anyway.
No one questions me staring at the pattern peeling bark has made on the tree for ten minutes like I did this evening.
They just presume I’m still being sad when I’m actually getting lost in something.
I do this when I’m feeling fine too but people think it’s odd. I like to be quiet and observe details at random, the art in everything around me. It’s something I have trouble explaining to people so I often hide it or just don’t do it at all.
Hey look, I even notice that I start to notice things more ha.
Speaking of all this however, leave something nice in my ask to cheer me up when I get back on?
Because yes, I’m a sad panda.
I’ll love you for it. <3
I knew she was out of my league and that getting my hopes up like that was stupid so I shouldn’t be surprised.
But she was so perfect. I couldn’t believe it.
I got so happy over it all.
I can’t rememer the last time liked anybody.
And my god I like her so very much. :c
I feel stupid for being so hurt over it but I can’t really help it.
She did like me I know that. But I wasn’t enough or there was something wrong… I don’t know.
It just felt like something important or big or real I guess..
Sitting around feeling unwanted and crying shit, could I be more pathetic today?
If I had girls throwing themselves at me 24/7 like she does I wouldn’t settle for me either. :c
I’m heading into Busso soon to book my ticket and stay with my friend for the evening.
Then tomorrow night it’s up to Perth to meet her. ^-^
I’m so impossibly excited. :D
Also I have a job interview to organise with Jacksons! It’s so perfect with the timing of everything. Good things are happening. :)
There’s plenty in my queue so no drama there but I won’t be on to answer questions or the like for about a week.
Wish me luck guys! ;)
Exactly 48 hours from now I’ll be getting off the bus and meeting her. :D
It’s all sinking in how close it is now.
You’re all sweethearts. <3
…I know you’re on here.